Phantom Reborn

My body mass is kept being reduced and reduced to a very very small amount of weight, and this really creeps me out sometimes.

During this period of time, I know, these are the moments where in some estimating 2000 years ago, when Jesus Christ was suffering, praying to the God so that strength could be granted upon Him, to be strong enough to overcome the future crucification which He was going to encounter back then.

Therefore, my church (being a relatively traditional one), has this kind of fasting activity going on in every single year. This event is to remind the believers how Jesus Christ had freed Himself from consuming anything through His mouth for 40 days. During the 40 days, basically, Jesus Christ is said to be just praying to God and asked for the strength. And so, we are encouraged to fast for 40 days as well (something similar like the Muslims, does it not?), but with no obligation, of course.

We could fast selectively, meaning, you could either choose to fast only one meal for a day, but if you feel like you can go full throttle, fasting for the whole day and reminiscing the words of God, then it would be better (well, I have to admit that your mind and soul somehow would come to a peaceful state).

Alright, so... according to nutritional experts, or generally, we know that we ought to take our breakfast like a king, eat luncheons like a prince, and have your dinner like a beggar. In other words, dinner proves to be the most hazardous meal which could adversely affect our health. Hence, we're always advised not to pump too much food at night.

I chose to join the activity by skipping my dinner everyday (until the Easter, that is.). I've been doing the same thing in the past, except that they weren't dinner, but in some years, breakfast, others, I probably skipped on luncheons.

Currently, my weight is shooting down to a ridiculous extend. I'm already very skinny at the moment, but the situation now is gradually turning me into a thin stick or one of its kind. It really worries me heck a lot. I was wondering does skipping dinners causing such a huge aftermath in my weight management? In the past, skipping luncheons and breakfasts would not affect my weight at all.

I dare not to reveal my weight at this time, it would probably shock the hell out of y'all. Confused and frustrated, I chose to take a path which would probably angers every lady in the house, by purchasing a weight gaining supplement, and it cost me around RM80.